Condolences
I just remembered that tonight is Nick’s grandad’s memorial service. I’m upset that he never told me anything about his grandad’s passing but now I understand why he sounded upset when he rescheduled his birthday party. I have one set of grandparents left. When my mother’s parents died I never went to their funerals. My grandad died first and my mother was crushed. He was a soldier and he was a banker. He had parkinson’s and he had alzheimer’s, I never got to know him because of this. My grandmum on my mother’s side though I got to know a bit. She was a nice lady but didn’t like the girls I went out with. I guess I could say it was hard to keep in touch with them because they live in the US but I could’ve been more in touch. Right now, I’m not even talking to my dad’s parents. I know I’m going to feel bad about it later but I’m just too self righteous and self-centered to do anything about it.
I’m going to go to the memorial tonight because Nick is like my brother. Though I’m going to probably stand in the back. I should talk to him or something but yeah, guy’s don’t exactly have an easy time talking to each other about painful situations. I know his grandad’s in a better place and my grandparents are too. But I know I’m going to hell.
The memorial is at SFdS at 8pm and his funeral service is on WED. I don’t know why I’m posting this here but I know I’m not going to post it on Xanga.